i know it might seem like I woke up like this, but here’s the real story…

i've either been where you are or supported someone else who has. you're not alone.

I grew up more fortunate than a lot of us. 

My dad was a successful business owner and he helped my partner and I buy our first home. He paid for both my college tuition and my brother’s and he gave me my first bookkeeping job. My mom was always trying out new businesses. Mary Kay, bookkeeping services, soap making, travel agent, and more. But to be honest, I never even thought about starting my own business until half way through my 20s. I always thought I was the type of person who didn’t have the creativity, patience, or self motivation to create my own processes and be my own boss. I was perfectly happy to allow someone else to do all that for me.

Fast forward to the age of 25, New York City, fired from my job 🙈

It was September 11, 2018 which means I’ll remember the date I went full time in my business for the rest of my life because it happened on 9/11.

I had started doing freelance bookkeeping work in March of 2018 and had already begun having the see-saw of thoughts that you experience when you’re wondering when to leave your job.

How many clients do I need?
How much money do I need to be making?
What if I fail?
And many more worries.

The Universe decided to push me out of the nest before I had the answers to any of those questions and luckily, my partner had the income to support us and our three cats while I built my business.

I want you to know that even though I grew up firmly within the middle class and I’ve never had to worry about ending up penniless and in the gutter, that I had deep money trauma that runs with the best of the best. Deeply held beliefs that came from my parents, grandparents, and childhood friends.

All of the methods that I’ve tried over the years combine together to tell my story. And I’m sure I wouldn’t be where I am today without that complex web of processes.

By far the most impactful tools in my repertoire are the ones that are pleasure and emotion centered. When I feel things deeply, all things, I feel truly centered. When I feel passion and grief and allow my multi-faceted magic to come through, money comes up to meet and support me.

I have felt lost, pissed, disenchanted, and betrayed by money and my business.

And the most profound lesson that I’ve learned is that all of those feelings, however uncomfortable and undesirable, are valid and important. I’ve learned to rage and tantrum and cry all with such abandon and permission.

This practice directly improves my self worth. My deservingness of my desires is paramount. My desires are my birthright and feeling deserving of those desires is my top priority.

I’ve supported 100s of entrepreneurs in your situation. I’ve made 6 figures in my business. I’ve worked with close to 10 mentors.

If you’re in desire for a mentor who can support you with all of your deepest, hottest, wettest desires, who will not be scared off by your scary, hairy, audacious goals, reach out to me and let’s chat.

Does anything about my story surprise you? Do you have any questions about my experience? Comment below if you can relate to my story!